What to do?

You know how you made a mess of everything and you hope it'll go back to normal after a while? Well, it's not that easy.

Yes, I made a mess of something. Something that escalated to something bigger and it continues like that for one round.

I don't want to sound like a pussy although I know I will, but I really regret that things turned out this way. I want it to go back to the way it were but how to?

One doesn't bother to talk to me anymore and she has a big impact there.

Another thing is that I'm afraid of getting those looks when I show my face in the area. The cold shoulders that you can feel from far, even when you're not with them.

I miss hanging out with them so bad, but I honestly don't know what to do anymore. Me, charging and forcing my way back in is futile. I can get kicked out just as fast as I can breathe. Yes, that fast.

I promised myself that I won't do anything that I will regret anymore and I still do. Ugh, I'm quite sucky for a person.