It's hard not to like you

I think I'm on the quest of self-deception because up until now, if I really think about it, I think I still like you.

I don't actually know why I still like you. And in case, it's not Muhsin because I'm honestly glad that he and Noreen got together. I like someone else. :)

I don't want to like you because I know I don't have any chances on that and if my gut feelings are correct this time, I know I might crush quite deep on you.

However, it's hard not to like you. The way you can just be yourself and everything. To be honest, how you act is how I act at home. Obviously, I won't bring that act with me in the outside zone. There's no comfort zone outside.

Sigh...

Well, it's only a short time from now and poof! bye bye crush. I hope.

Trying to lose weight

I've been jogging for at least a week. A round each time. For this week, A round and a half. YET, I don't feel or see any differences. WHAT THE HECK IS WRONG WITH ME?

I love the fact that I feel tired after each jog so I'll be able to sleep easily. Better than before. However, I'm still getting breakouts. I don't know what is wrong anymore! I'm getting demoralized again. I'll try not to though.

Going back to the topic - - - -

So basically, I don't think I'm losing weight at all, even though I've at least clocked a distance of I don't know how many kilometers but it seems a lot to me. I swam laps too!

For the swimming part, however, I don't mind if I have to swim for a really long time in order to lose weight. I love swimming and even with my body now, I still swim fast. Faster than my brother who is like way fitter than me. ACCOMPLISHMENT!

I just have to keep making sure I swim faster each time.

Not because I'm lazy

I haven't been blogging often because I have no inspiration to blog at all. It's not because I'm lazy although I would understand if you think that way. But believe me, the reason is far from that.

It's kind of sad because it goes to show how boring my life is. Sad Sad Boring Life

Well, one good thing I am confident in saying would be that I'm done with eyecandies for now.

I swear, cross my heart and hope to die.

Sure, recently, I liked this bunch of guys. 3 guys to be specific. ALL EYECANDIES.
Sad really. I realized that I've been using that word pretty often.

Morn, SG, Inclass

Bunch of eyecandies that I barely talk to. Hence, I don't think I'll consider them to be crushes. Mere eyecandies. Yes, that's right.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RYAN

I would've met up with you and celebrated it but

1. I doubt you'll go out
2. I think you're in camp

So hmm, hopefully we go out soon to celebrate it I guess?

Once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY RYAN CHAN SHI DA! Yes, I remembered your full name. HAHA

Boring Sunday

It's only 2.32pm and I'm complaining at how slow the time passes.



I was playing nintendo wii just now, this game:

To be frank, this game is cool for people who like shooting games. i.e. left 4 dead, dead space?

I played it for at least 2 hours i think till my brother complained. Therefore, I had to stop and continue my boring life. I have no life. ugh.

I was contemplating making a graphics site again? Should I? Wait, do people still do the graphics thingy nowadays?

If only singapore was into myspace, maybe I will go back to making a graphic site again but we're into facebook here. Hence, it's pointless to try and make layouts for myspace.

I think I'll be lazy and end up closing it again. Shucks.

Even making stories is out of the point because I always lose my train of thoughts. You know, sometimes it suck to get interested in things easily because that would mean you lose your passion here and there. In a way.

Updates on the albums

I have their whole discography. Yes, I'm so very happy about that now!

Except for their upcoming album that will be released during February this year.

Alkaline trio!

I have a number of their album now and I'm really excited in listening to them!

To be totally honest, I didn't really know much about alkaline trio till mid-year last year. Imagine that, all those 17 years of no knowledge of alkaline trio at all. The horror!

So here's some history on them - the goodness of them,

Alkaline Trio, also known as Alk3 (just like how Avenged Sevenfold has its own abbreviation)

They formed their band in the year 1996 and it consist of: Matt Skiba, Dan Andriano, Derek Grant.

Awesome shit.

And as wikipedia say so, they have 6 albums so far. The sixth one being released this year, 2010. FUCKING COOL.

Many more information here: click.

An example of their mad awesome skills.

Hooked yet?

You know how I got hooked to Alkaline Trio?

I was on youtube looking for songs to put in my phone to listen to. You know, music just rocks your world sometime. Yes, you cannot escape my love for them. Anything you click, they might just pop out.

So that's how I managed to get to know Alkaline Trio and now I have mad love for them. Awesome shit.

nabei, all you big bicycles

Hello! Let me introduce you to my newest bicycle...
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My bicycle:

So yeah, my bicycle is like damn small. Like I always said, it's the adult version of those kid bicycle. It's cute that way!

Although if I were a smaller size, we'll be a matching pair and that'll be even CUTER!

Anyway, every morning when I ride to school, all those riding those big bicycles gather and sometimes I swear they gather just to feel good about themselves.

I feel embarrassed to ride my bicycle out sometimes but since I'm too lazy to walk, riding's the only way out.

ohwellz

Flu

It's official, I hate being sick. Although I didn't really change my diet much, I still eat chocolate and drink cold water. Okay, it's my bad for the chocolate part but my brother said that cold water doesn't really affect the throat so I believe my brother.

Who ever created viruses like this anyway? So air-borne and undetected that next thing you know, BAM! everyone have it and they're all pointing fingers around and naming it.

If you come from overseas, you're stereotypically known as probably a virus-carrier. You never know right? Especially if you come from those infected countries. You get double the blow if you do.

You cough loud once and you immediately see people cover their mouth and walk 234565432 steps away from you. Okay, exaggerated.

Basically, being ill suck and I used to like being sick. Obviously because I get to skip school.

I don't like being sick anymore. I got to be more healthy.

This video got into me:

Holy shit

My first fucking F. In the whole 1st year of RP I had and it's my favourite module! Gosh, I need to buck up now.

I somewhat feel that I kind of let my team down. I'm so sorry to them.

Okay, tomorrow's T205. I'm going to buck up. It's fucking flash. If i'm not wrong, so I cannot wait to learn that!

ps/ & it's ok, the whole thing was my choice anyway. So I mean, an F is kind of okay since I never got F before. haha

Happy Birthday Jessica!

I'm glad you enjoyed this year's birthday! :D

Finally 18 eh! :)

Don't do anything stupid though.

love love!

State of confusion

So I'm not sure where I stand now but I really hope everything is fine now. I have this weird feeling that it's not and I'm fucking confused.

I know, yes, I have things to do on my end but right now, where I stand, I'm a little confused. So I honestly hope my thoughts get untangled and everything goes smoothly.

Let me have 1 good year for once.

UT2

ALL THE BEST EVERYONE! :D

ps/ on a side note, when I was in facebook checking the messages from God application thing, I got this:

Apparently, God is tellng me that hot singles are waiting. Go figure.

psps/ it's a joke. :)

What to do?

You know how you made a mess of everything and you hope it'll go back to normal after a while? Well, it's not that easy.

Yes, I made a mess of something. Something that escalated to something bigger and it continues like that for one round.

I don't want to sound like a pussy although I know I will, but I really regret that things turned out this way. I want it to go back to the way it were but how to?

One doesn't bother to talk to me anymore and she has a big impact there.

Another thing is that I'm afraid of getting those looks when I show my face in the area. The cold shoulders that you can feel from far, even when you're not with them.

I miss hanging out with them so bad, but I honestly don't know what to do anymore. Me, charging and forcing my way back in is futile. I can get kicked out just as fast as I can breathe. Yes, that fast.

I promised myself that I won't do anything that I will regret anymore and I still do. Ugh, I'm quite sucky for a person.

Last day of the holidays

Which means there is school tomorrow. How nice. No more sleeping at 5 or 6am and waking up late. I'll definitely miss that. Although it isn't good since right now, I'm going through breakouts again. sheesh.

I played The sims 2 for the whole day. I really made sure I used my time well huh? Right now, my legs are aching. IT FUCKING HURTS!

Okay, so I and I are supposedly friends now, I hope. I wonder what to do with the group but I honestly think there isn't anything I can do to get over this.

Anyway, I'm pretty sure of that. I know that if I go down and they see me, there'll be that change of expressions and the awkward part. I don't want to go there and feel that. I mean, it's inevitable and as much as I want to go back to the past, I don't think there is any way for that to happen. Mm, If there's any suggestions, I'd love to know.

Ohwellz.

SIMS 2 DOUBLE DELUXE + EPs

I have them all and I'm super excited in trying them all out. Problem is I'm lazy to install the rest of the expansion packs. I'm currently playing Apartment life now and I'm really loving it!

I just wanted to boast that I have them all now! YES SUCKERS!

Bye bye 2009, hello 2010!

I look at the time now and well, I'm not really surprised. I've been sleeping this late for quite some time now. curses. Holiday's fault.

I had a sudden urge to change my notsodorky to emblazy. It's more updated that way. I'm still a dork though. I think Fazlyn can vouch for that, pretty sure. I'm not proud that she'll vouch for that, I tell ya. If she's reading this, either she'll laugh or she'll say no (as in say she won't do that and then get distracted). joke.

Basically, I've been lazier as days passes, and yes, I have a visual of my future self being unable to walk due to over-numbness in my legs because I sit on my queen-sized bed too much and well, too fat - the procrastination disease took over my body. So I thought, why not change the dorky to lazy? And I did! Mission accomplished!

Well, there was another reason as to why I changed the name too. I wanted to get rid of 2009. ... in a way.

2009 was good but short-lived. I was angsty and stupid. ohwellz.

The good things about 2009 were:

GREAT CLASSES for the first 2 semesters

Went to batam for the 1st time!

Highlighted my hair for the 1st time!

1st big sylvester plushie from w47q

1st sem classmates

Found old pictures while packing

'Cus we moved to another house

There were plenty of good things that happened, if I'm not wrong but I didn't put them here because I don't have the pictures in my laptop.

Anyway, goodbye 2009 and hello 2010, please be better.