Insomnia

I'm cursed. I've always known I was but I was deluding myself and saying,

You're alright elora, you're not cursed. You're just difficulty. No wait... Special!

Fuck yeah, I'm special! What a load of bull. I'm not special. I'm cursed. Right from the beginning.

I was on my bed today, well yesterday, it's midnight now, from 11pm to 1am. That's 2 hours of doing nothing but lie lifeless on the bed. Or seemingly lifeless.

I did do research on this fucking illness.

I found out this solution that makes this certain person sleep and I thought, at first, that it works because I yawned after trying that solution. It all went downhill from there.

Step 1: Close your eyes.

Did that. Pretty easy step.

Step 2: Empty your mind of EVERYTHING

Okayyyy, still no problem.

Step 3: Inhale and Exhale deeply and count each breathing

1...2...3...4...5...

That's it!

WTF? REALLY? I thought. FUCKING EASY TO THE MAX! I thought wrong.

I tried it out since then and it fucking lied to me. I can't sleep AT ALL. It's the same method as counting sheeps. Counting sheeps don't make you fall asleep, it enhances your mathematical counting. I should have stopped when it said "count". It was suspicious enough.

I repel math. I used to love math but hey, love for subjects comes and goes just like how school comes and goes. Cruel but it's life.

I found some general recommendation to ease my problem with sleeping and wow, they're real helpful.

Like I never tried that one. But WAIT WHAT?

UM... I know I screen-shot it but ... let's skip it.

Been there, tried that.EXACTLY MY POINT! So now I'm up. Fuck, I'm dead. The same thing will happen tomorrow and it's a vicious cycle.

SOMEONE FUCKING LIFT THE CURSE PLEASE.